The Eclipse Kiss: It's just a little crush, Jacob.

Let's talk about the worst part of the entire Saga, second only to Edward leaving. Good Lord I'll be hiding my eyes under my Edward blanket during the movie.....the moment Jacob tricks Bella into getting her to kiss him and there's that God-awful "vision" of her future with Jacob. Cry me a river Tiffany about what Coulda Been so beautiful but someone explain this whole mess to me because this is another one of those What The Eff-ron moments for me. Completely makes me question if I even like the damn SAGA. (Thank goodness for 266 pages of Midnight Sun.) When I read Eclipse I was caught up in trying to figure out what was going on. The kiss I didn't see coming and when it happened I wanted to toss everything I could get my hands on across the room.

If in any way I was caught up and felt like I was Bella in Twilight and the end of New Moon, well by the time I was heavy into Eclipse my POV had changed into that best friend of Bella's.  You know, the one who would keep trying to give relationship advice and she refuses to take it and she listens to her complain, whine, and cry over not knowing what to do but ultimately has to just step back and watch as she keeps making one stupid mistake after another. Yeah Bella that was me, the best friend you needed, screaming, "What the hell are you doing? And Edward why can't you just read your mind? And I hope that Jacob died in the battle!!!"

So you mean to tell me that at the age of 18 years old, Bella was given this "superkiss" by Jacob that sparked an entire vision of what her life could be like with him? I can tell you that when I was 20 years old I had a crush on a guy "that I could see myself marrying" but that was as far as it went. I just didn't get this vision thing at all. I mean did Bella end up with being able to have visions like Alice as a vampire? Err, I don't think so! She was a shield-that was her gift, her shieldybrain should have resisted the wolfy mojo shouldn't it have?

Bella stands there and tells herself she is in love with Jacob? Really? After you spent months in agony and crying over the loss of Edward? **throws hands up in the air and walks away**

I think Bella was mistaken in her self assessment that she loved Jacob much more than she should. I think more so, it was just a crush. One of those crushes that can be all confusing and have such a power over you and make you say things like, "I'm in love" without really, truly being in love--typical for her age (as we all demonstrated in the comments last week) and enabled by the immaturity of Jacob's character. This time she was standing at the edge of the cliff and Jacob Black pushed her off.

And then to make herself feel better in the midst of snow and being under attack from newborns and the looming presence of Victoria showing up at any second Bella throws herself at Edward? Ummm, kind of more proof at her immaturity level there. So yeah, Bella I don't believe you were mature enough to know what it was you felt for Jacob and you mistook it for love, but it was really just a crush.

Do you hear me smug, wipe the grin off your face, Jacob Black? Bella was not in love with you the way you think she was. Just because he got bigger physically doesn't mean his maturity and mentality grew at the same time. Oh his ego did but it was really immature of him to lay this claim over Bella like they could be together for life.  Yep, just a strong crush for Bella...we've all been there. Hindsight affords all of us the opportunity to know who we loved and who was just a crush...I think we can all look back and think we were "in love" with someone when we were young but realize it wasn't love. But Bella should have known better than any of us when we were that young because she did have true love simultaneously with Edward.

Remember in Twilight when Bella was trying to decide for herself if she could accept Edward as a vamp and she said making the decision was always hard for her? I like to tell myself she was just really caught up in the emotional confusion of the decision making regarding becoming a vampire when she had this sudden clouded revelation she was "in love" with Jacob.

Here's a little song she should have been singing to herself and Jacob. Check out @2:15 the words and the lyrics both have HUGE Twilight connections.

This is a 90s song if you don't recognize it at first. "Crush" by Jennifer Paige

"Vanilla Skies, white picket fences in your eyes, a vision of you and me."

That vision was like wolf roadkill and definite overkill on Stephenie's part. Ummm...Bella is 18 and Jacob is 16 or 17 (?) so we are supposed to believe that had Edward not been in the picture they would have been together...like forever? Well that is sad because if you think she was giving up a lot to be a vampire with Edward then you might have missed how there was no room in that vision of hers for college, graduate school, a career, travel, studying abroad, or even a hobby....it was just her and Jacob and 2 kids running around the reservation. In the day and age of 2005?  Oh, and Charlie and Renee were in it--together, so like wishful thinking? Was it her Anne of Green Gables wolfy version? I never read those books but wasn't Anne a scholar at least?

As usual, I would love to be enlightened by your thoughts on both the kiss and "the vision." [Read as: try to explain it to me so it makes sense.] At this point, the only way I could possibly make sense out of it is if I wrote a prequel.
Could I do that and make money? No right?
Just fanfictionworld.
That bites.
-TT